this is mary's wondering

as i find myself exploring "Blogspot"

i am wondering why there are so many blogs about people's children.

is it just me, or does that strike you as... creepy?

do they think we care?

if i were a mother, or a father, i certainly wouldn't want internet folk eyeing my spawn.

i wouldn't know though. i've never had a child.

i probably shouldn't.

i find myself bored on my laptop on weekday afternoons

when i'm not doing anything in particular, or out with friends.

today i am listening to Amy Winehouse.

she's been inspiring me for the past 24 hours. last night,

i even drew a jazz singer with wild eyeliner.

it makes me wonder what gets me in moods for particular musics.

when i watch T.V. with my family on evenings, i see a lot of sexual innuendos.

i wonder if the people who made the shows used these subtle messages

as a way to provide sex education for the mass generation that is growing up.

and i also wonder, if this is preaching morals

and letting the corporations that make children's television

teach our youth about sex.

then i get scared.

because, i think about how i grew up on the same programmes.

it's not a secret. candy stores are happy places.

but i wonder, if after being surrounded by a joyous place so long,

the workers of the store, and even the candy, get sick of it.

or maybe, they just like being in there, because it's where they can escape their problems.

i'd be pretty content, working surrounded by

lollipops, licorice, gumdrops, chocolate, nuts, and assorted confections.

my geometry teacher is a crazy old man. but he's not a joke.

we all respect and love the math teacher. even i do, and i am "math-stupid".

i think it's because he tells jokes and weird stories,

and that he has a character, and a personality.

even if it's fake, he still gets across to the students

more than the other facilitators of our learning.

i wonder if he does it on purpose because,

he knows that i am secretly learning.

wondering thoughts, december 15th 2009